birthdays & braces

February 9th, 2010

Good with the bad.

Referring to my post title,

both are things of the past.

Today is Shar's birthday. A hard day, as I guess, is expected. I try to not dwell on it & let it get the best of me. Carry on.

Once again....the radio is a problem!

I just pick up Averie from the orthodontist (she got her braces off!!) YAY!!!

We took a picture to send to Derek & my Mom.

We start driving & bam! As we are pulling out of the parking lot the song on the radio makes my heart stop. Instantly my eyes burn, lump in my throat & takes my breath for just a second. Averie stops talking immediately & all I can say while trying to talk, "it is her birthday today". I know Averie felt what I did. The song was "I can only Imagine" We played it at her funeral. I have not heard it for months....maybe even close to a year & yes I do remember EVERY SINGLE TIME I hear it. Stops me in my tracks & I listen. No one in the car said a word & yes I cried....& cried....& cried. The tears just don't turn off for this kind of pain. I tried calling Derek but he didn't answer. I call him when I have a meltdown. Then by the time we got to school the song was over. Averie looks at me & says, "that was really weird". I honestly think it is Shar's way of letting me know that she hasn't forgotten me instead of the other way around. She knows I have not forgotten her. I miss having a sister. Now I am bawling again. Gotta end this post. Glad today is over.

Happy Birthday...Happy NO braces!